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Favorites February 2018 this month has been very eventful my birthday was first week of February and that means many new things for presents so here are my favorite things this month, 1) i got a new pastel pink bag that i adore so much 2) cloths from hot topic including a new leather jacket 2 new tshirts and 2 new pairs of jeans 3) i was also introduced to hard candy cosmetics  TV shows and movies 1) aqua teen hunger force, 2) ponyo 3) my little pony the movie  4) trolls 5) super sentai car ranger 6) batman by gas light i highly recommend all these shows and movies favorite youtube momments my can you be goth and emo video got to over 100 views and my channel is now at 149 subbies come check out my latest video the favorites vlog https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z8RxfKTkXDQ

Can You Be Goth And Emo? this week im going to be writing alot about m life in the alternative scene . This subject isent one most alternative people like to talk about i dont  know if its a confidence issue or goths  dont like to talk about it, im the type of person who always has to speak their opinion. My answer to this question is yes you dont have to give up your love of emo music to be part of the goth subculture dont give up things you love just to fit in and dont be afraid to say you like certain things. If your going to hide who you are and what your other interests are where is the fun in being part of a community if you have to hide yourself . i get people have bad confidence in them selves so do i but we need to learn to accept are selves if we want other people to accept us as who we truly are . Hope this post helps some of you alternative people out  check out my video on the subject https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8ZihAyVvo64&t=2s ...

Celebration time! i got some amazing news the other day last week my doctor changed my illness evaluation i am no longer labeled as a schizophrenic i am labeled as having ptsd  so what does this mean for the future it means im gonna be able to get better some day YAY!!!!! ever since i found out i have been non stop smiling im over the top happy now i have so much more waiting for me in life being able to work in 2 to 3 years being able to be a happier person being able to follow my dreams of modeling and being an artist and being an even better youtuber and version of myself! my goals for recovery #1 become my own rep for disability #2  with 2 years of therapy ill be moving on  #3 learn to distance myself form my triggers #4 learn how to not think about the past and think more on the present  #5 STAY POSITIVE NO MORE NEGETIVITY check out my latest video on the subject ! https://www.youtube.com/wat...

what happened last year around my birthday my birthday is on February 7th so much things have one on  since my last birthday the day after my birthday i confessed my feelings to my fiance he was just a friend at the time on the 24th we made it official and started dating it was the time of my life things where still bad at my dads but this gave me the strength to push through i was also still in high school so being in high school at age 21 was really stressful but i wasent as depressed now that i had him to talk to i was living in PA at the time and he was in SC thats 6 hours away my dream was to be with him in person that dream came true in may my dreams and hopes this year now that ive gotten everything i have ever wanted this year isent as far fetched now that that big dream has come true we are even living together and getting married so my dream become more than i could ever imagine  this year im hoping to have a great birthday with him and...

why normal hair dont suit me my opinions so recently middle of January ive started dying my hair bright colors  this was always a dream of mine to do cause ive never been in the norm ive always been the odd ball in every group im finally out of my family's  house so i went through with it and i was right i feel so much more comfortable with myself it boosted my self confidence to be the way i wanted for once so heres why i cant see myself with normal hair ever again #1 im moving on from my old life and my painful past it represents me becoming a new better me #2 it looks great on me way more than my natural hair color did #3 it fits with my alternative fashion way more than normal hair does come watch me dying my hair on my YouTube theirs 2 videos now heres the most recent ! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eWA6O6HWi3g

my struggles of having to be on  disability i talk about my disability a lot on my channel but i never seem to get the courage to speak out about how much a struggle it is being on disability and not being aloud to be in control of it  a in November i lost my fiances mother as my rep over a family issue with me they did not want a schizophrenic to marry their son and throw me under the bus left me with out anyone to control my money it was a real struggle and anxiety ridden moment it lasted for a couple weeks i was so scared then his aunt offered to help me but only if i met her standards i had no choice so once again my life is being controlled i dont get to wear what i want or dye my hair well io dyed my hair behind her back she flipped out exactly like a parent would saying thats not the way a lady looks excuse me if i want to be different cause i am different thankfully she let it slide but who knows what will set her off to...

                                  video plan for 100 subbies im almost to 100 subscribers on my youtube ahhh this is so exciting ive only been on my youtube channel since november im so proud of myself for growing this channel all the hard work is paying off so getting to my 100 sub plan i want to do a song cover again to celebrate but this one will be shot like a music video i want it to look as cool as possible for my viewers to enjoy im gona plan to do the song rainbow by sia from the my little pony movie i love to sing but dont get to often i thought shooting  a cool music video would really show my viewers how much i love them! heres my first cover i did if you want to go check that out   https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=owBZ6doReOE&t=4s