kawaii sinn official

                     I feel like my life is just now starting is                                                                that weird? Till just recently i never thought like i was living i felt kinda dead to the world and it was the worse feeling then something changed, In November my fiances aunt "Lisa" stepped into my life and became a really big part she so carelingly stepped up and became my representative after i lost my last one this ment the world to me at first i thought she was gonna just be like every other rep i ever had where i just end up getting hurt and mis treated but no shes more like a mother figure she wanted whats best for me tried to actually guide me in the right positions and teach me independence every other rep before her has mis us...

                             why i model as a hobby self confidence has always been a huge issue for me growing up the only word i ever heard was fat . This did a number on my confidence i started seeing myself as ugly and un attractive it dident help that my sister was getting all the boys in school and my other siblings were all in relationships. But something changed when i went into 10th grade my dad got me into phototgraphy and i had also joined the cosplay community being infront of the camera made me feel pretty for once in my life. Now days i take pictures all the time and no longer do i see what people have said all these years.  Even if your a bigger girl modeling as a hobby is a great thing for boosting how you feel about yourself . Now that i have modeling in my life im no loner lissoning to what others have said to me.  And i think my readers and viewers should give i...

Celebration time! i got some amazing news the other day last week my doctor changed my illness evaluation i am no longer labeled as a schizophrenic i am labeled as having ptsd  so what does this mean for the future it means im gonna be able to get better some day YAY!!!!! ever since i found out i have been non stop smiling im over the top happy now i have so much more waiting for me in life being able to work in 2 to 3 years being able to be a happier person being able to follow my dreams of modeling and being an artist and being an even better youtuber and version of myself! my goals for recovery #1 become my own rep for disability #2  with 2 years of therapy ill be moving on  #3 learn to distance myself form my triggers #4 learn how to not think about the past and think more on the present  #5 STAY POSITIVE NO MORE NEGETIVITY check out my latest video on the subject ! https://www.youtube.com/wat...