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Celebration time! i got some amazing news the other day last week my doctor changed my illness evaluation i am no longer labeled as a schizophrenic i am labeled as having ptsd  so what does this mean for the future it means im gonna be able to get better some day YAY!!!!! ever since i found out i have been non stop smiling im over the top happy now i have so much more waiting for me in life being able to work in 2 to 3 years being able to be a happier person being able to follow my dreams of modeling and being an artist and being an even better youtuber and version of myself! my goals for recovery #1 become my own rep for disability #2  with 2 years of therapy ill be moving on  #3 learn to distance myself form my triggers #4 learn how to not think about the past and think more on the present  #5 STAY POSITIVE NO MORE NEGETIVITY check out my latest video on the subject ! https://www.youtube.com/wat...

what happened last year around my birthday my birthday is on February 7th so much things have one on  since my last birthday the day after my birthday i confessed my feelings to my fiance he was just a friend at the time on the 24th we made it official and started dating it was the time of my life things where still bad at my dads but this gave me the strength to push through i was also still in high school so being in high school at age 21 was really stressful but i wasent as depressed now that i had him to talk to i was living in PA at the time and he was in SC thats 6 hours away my dream was to be with him in person that dream came true in may my dreams and hopes this year now that ive gotten everything i have ever wanted this year isent as far fetched now that that big dream has come true we are even living together and getting married so my dream become more than i could ever imagine  this year im hoping to have a great birthday with him and...

why normal hair dont suit me my opinions so recently middle of January ive started dying my hair bright colors  this was always a dream of mine to do cause ive never been in the norm ive always been the odd ball in every group im finally out of my family's  house so i went through with it and i was right i feel so much more comfortable with myself it boosted my self confidence to be the way i wanted for once so heres why i cant see myself with normal hair ever again #1 im moving on from my old life and my painful past it represents me becoming a new better me #2 it looks great on me way more than my natural hair color did #3 it fits with my alternative fashion way more than normal hair does come watch me dying my hair on my YouTube theirs 2 videos now heres the most recent ! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eWA6O6HWi3g

my struggles of having to be on  disability i talk about my disability a lot on my channel but i never seem to get the courage to speak out about how much a struggle it is being on disability and not being aloud to be in control of it  a in November i lost my fiances mother as my rep over a family issue with me they did not want a schizophrenic to marry their son and throw me under the bus left me with out anyone to control my money it was a real struggle and anxiety ridden moment it lasted for a couple weeks i was so scared then his aunt offered to help me but only if i met her standards i had no choice so once again my life is being controlled i dont get to wear what i want or dye my hair well io dyed my hair behind her back she flipped out exactly like a parent would saying thats not the way a lady looks excuse me if i want to be different cause i am different thankfully she let it slide but who knows what will set her off to...

                                  video plan for 100 subbies im almost to 100 subscribers on my youtube ahhh this is so exciting ive only been on my youtube channel since november im so proud of myself for growing this channel all the hard work is paying off so getting to my 100 sub plan i want to do a song cover again to celebrate but this one will be shot like a music video i want it to look as cool as possible for my viewers to enjoy im gona plan to do the song rainbow by sia from the my little pony movie i love to sing but dont get to often i thought shooting  a cool music video would really show my viewers how much i love them! heres my first cover i did if you want to go check that out   https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=owBZ6doReOE&t=4s

reasons i like pastel goth fashion i used to be into dark mocab goth fashion but i was really depressed black every where really made my moods worse then i got out of depression and discovered pastel goth fashion it had that touch of color i needed in my life with a hint of kawaii which ive always enjoyed being cute and looking like an anime girl pastel goth fashion alows me to do that while still enjoying the alternative scene i feel way more comfortable in my skin wearing pastel goth cloths and makeup since i started days have been alot brighter   

My plans for youtube  here are my plans for youtube jsut been brain storming some ideas i want to do tell me what you think !. art time lapse  2. itta bag dye 3. customizing my vanity mirror 4. kawaii fawn makeup 5.dark fawn makeup        these 2 are supposed to follow each other 6. creppy cute makeup 7. vlogging a normal day with me around where i live  8.hair transformation vlog 9. story time why dont i cosplay at conventions anymore 10.story time the time i was introduced to anime  11. pinki pie makeup 12. darky pie makeup   anouther double feature 13. a trip to hobby lobby vlog  these are my ideas for now