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how i got my insperation so i been doing photo shoots for a long time now over a year , my style has changed so much though i used to do cosplay and anime themed stuff till i started lissoning to goth music and it really opened my eyes to a whole new world. Then i started looking up gothic fashion on pinterest ( which i love) and ideas just flooded my head i learn most of my makeup by looking at pictures on there and it really inspires my fashion sense. Even my kawaii side is inspired ! so anyway today i fashioned my outfit from morticia herself i wore a cape some cat eye sun glasses and all black which black is my happy color i did my eyes all dramatic and wore red lip stick with black lip liner i felt gorgeous .

                                                                    March plans 2018 1) more anime video  skits death note , Tokyo goul top 5 waifus  when the obsession started  2) makeup videos cosplay  full out dramatic goth look unicorn makeup pikachu makeup pastel gothic moon makeup 3)pika princesses day out  4)spring clothing haul still brain storming ideas follow me on YouTube to see these in full action  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC3t0VnyyfeonYaFB2PG8Tgg?view_as=subscriber

                             why i model as a hobby self confidence has always been a huge issue for me growing up the only word i ever heard was fat . This did a number on my confidence i started seeing myself as ugly and un attractive it dident help that my sister was getting all the boys in school and my other siblings were all in relationships. But something changed when i went into 10th grade my dad got me into phototgraphy and i had also joined the cosplay community being infront of the camera made me feel pretty for once in my life. Now days i take pictures all the time and no longer do i see what people have said all these years.  Even if your a bigger girl modeling as a hobby is a great thing for boosting how you feel about yourself . Now that i have modeling in my life im no loner lissoning to what others have said to me.  And i think my readers and viewers should give it a try as well. come check out vlog of todays photo shoot https://www.youtube.com/watch

Favorites February 2018 this month has been very eventful my birthday was first week of February and that means many new things for presents so here are my favorite things this month, 1) i got a new pastel pink bag that i adore so much 2) cloths from hot topic including a new leather jacket 2 new tshirts and 2 new pairs of jeans 3) i was also introduced to hard candy cosmetics  TV shows and movies 1) aqua teen hunger force, 2) ponyo 3) my little pony the movie  4) trolls 5) super sentai car ranger 6) batman by gas light i highly recommend all these shows and movies favorite youtube momments my can you be goth and emo video got to over 100 views and my channel is now at 149 subbies come check out my latest video the favorites vlog https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z8RxfKTkXDQ

Can You Be Goth And Emo? this week im going to be writing alot about m life in the alternative scene . This subject isent one most alternative people like to talk about i dont  know if its a confidence issue or goths  dont like to talk about it, im the type of person who always has to speak their opinion. My answer to this question is yes you dont have to give up your love of emo music to be part of the goth subculture dont give up things you love just to fit in and dont be afraid to say you like certain things. If your going to hide who you are and what your other interests are where is the fun in being part of a community if you have to hide yourself . i get people have bad confidence in them selves so do i but we need to learn to accept are selves if we want other people to accept us as who we truly are . Hope this post helps some of you alternative people out  check out my video on the subject https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8ZihAyVvo64&t=2s

Celebration time! i got some amazing news the other day last week my doctor changed my illness evaluation i am no longer labeled as a schizophrenic i am labeled as having ptsd  so what does this mean for the future it means im gonna be able to get better some day YAY!!!!! ever since i found out i have been non stop smiling im over the top happy now i have so much more waiting for me in life being able to work in 2 to 3 years being able to be a happier person being able to follow my dreams of modeling and being an artist and being an even better youtuber and version of myself! my goals for recovery #1 become my own rep for disability #2  with 2 years of therapy ill be moving on  #3 learn to distance myself form my triggers #4 learn how to not think about the past and think more on the present  #5 STAY POSITIVE NO MORE NEGETIVITY check out my latest video on the subject ! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=enzLYMdlutw&t=25s